Once I used to chase beauty, now I revel in it..
For the last ten years my little tagline has always to been, 'I write, I create, I drink tea and I chase beauty'. I used love the idea of chasing beauty, like it was out there somewhere to run after and capture in a jar, like a specimen in a museum. It seems though, the last two and a half years of my life have taught me that I might have been going about things the wrong way. You see, I think all the chasing of beauty wore me out, looking for it out there somewhere, in far off places, destinations I couldn't reach, in a life that wasn't destined for me. These days as I take pleasure in the simple things and spend my days at home, pottering and playing with my girl, I have come to realise that all the beauty I was chasing, is right here, all around me and within me, I had just never stopped to really notice. I went straight from high school to university, straight from university to work and then back again and then into a teaching position that encompassed my whole life. I was barely at home. And when I was, I was busy 'chasing' inspiration, looking for external sources of inspiration, rather than taking a moment to enjoy what was all around me.
So these days, I take a moment to enjoy the lovely smell of lemon oil in my homemade washing liquid and bask in the glorious afternoon sunshine as I peg sweet floral bloomers on the clothes line. I pause to take a glimpse at the delightful illustrations in the picture books that I re-shelve for third time today and feel a little bubble of excitement as I grab my basket ready to gather veggies straight from the garden for dinner. And when I'm in need of a little inspiration, rather than wishing I was in a far off country, or finding myself spending hours searching through Pinterest, we don our walking shoes and sun hats and head down to the river, gathering flowers, feathers and leaves along the way, watching the clouds paint the afternoon sky and listening to sweet bird songs as we walk. Each day I revel in this simple, quiet life of ours. I remind myself to take things slowly, to enjoy these precious days, to worry less about the passing hours and more about embracing them with joy and gratitude. To find that balance, online and offline and most of all to be present and open to every opportunity that life presents.
Much Love & Light