Kirsten Hedges' gorgeous website and resonated so deeply with her thoughts on yoga, mindfulness and looking within to feel what was really going on. So from that day I made a promise to myself, to be more mindful, to connect and honour myself and the journey I'd been through, to nourish my soul and find my way back to me.
Every day things get a little easier, as I remind myself to find the joy, embrace the moment and redefine what I think life should 'look like'. But still each day, I find myself still struggling to find balance between my role as a mother and my passion for my creative work. And I always hope tomorrow will be different, that I might find a happy medium, only to wind up at the end of the day feeling the same result, like I'm falling behind somewhere.
I spent my precious 20 minutes on the yoga mat last night, bathed in the embracing glow of the full moon and felt a little magic in the air. I tried my first Warrior III pose in my new mama body (a little shaky, but finding my centre) and as I did I listened to Elena Brower's blissful and life changing words, "Be so grateful for any moment of balance". And just like something within me shifted.
For in yoga and in life, balance is something that we are constantly searching for. And it is finding it with mindfulness and gratitude, rather than always needing to attain a perfect end result, that is truly important. So as I write my to do list today, I do so knowing that any moment of balance I find is a truly precious one. And while I many not accomplish ever task on the list (some mundane and others fabulous lofty dreams) and I may not get to the second load of washing or feel I've been patient enough while Tallow explores her new world, I am so grateful for the opportunity to wake up each morning and give it a red hot go.